Monday, November 12, 2012

A Pantoum: Masking My Face



The mask upon my face


I wear a mask upon my face
I never cry nor smile
I never show emotion
It hurts too much

I never cry nor smile
I wear an eternal facade
It hurts so much
I need to stop

I wear an eternal facade
I bottle my emotions
I need to stop
I don’t know how

I bottle my emotions
I want to ask for help but
I don’t know how
Weakness hurts me

I want to ask for help but
I don’t want to look weak
Weakness hurts me
I don’t like pain

I don’t want to look weak
So I push the pain inside
I don’t like pain
But I know no other way

So I push the pain inside
I wear a mask upon my face
I know no other way
It hurts so much

I wear a mask upon my face
Forever there it stays
It hurts so much
But I push aside the pain

And forever there it stays
This mask upon my face
And as I push aside the pain
It loosens every day

This mask upon my face
I don’t want it to remain
It loosens every day
And I cry

I don’t want it to remain
It’s hurting so bad
And so I cry
I’m starting to change

It’s hurting so bad
I can’t keep up this charade
I’m starting to change
And so I throw the mask away

I’ve given up this charade
I wear my heart upon my sleeve
I’ve thrown my mask away
I will never be the same


--Ethan Seevers

2 comments:

ed pacht said...

I like this piece very much.

It's different from any pantoum I've seen (or written) in that it does not rhyme, and it is not quite a perfect pantoum in that some of the repeated lines are not repeated precisely, most obviously in the final stanza.

All that said, it is an extraordinarily successful piece, carrying a thought through clearly and compellingly, carrying a great deal of emotion with it, and doing so in a rhythmic and compelling way.

Whatever may be said about the form, it is a wonderful piece, and I'd not change a word of it.

-----ed pacht

Alice Linsley said...

Glad to hear from you on this, Ed. I was tempted to make Ethan conform to the pantoum, but decided to publish it without any editing.

He'll be encouraged by your remarks. Thanks.